KOs of life

We all have challenging times that occur in our lives at varying degrees of difficulty. That’s life and exactly what I help people prepare for. By laying a stable foundation to ensure they are in a place where they can hold more things versus crumbling with every challenge. Even with my dedication to growth and all of the foundation I’ve laid, there are still things that can knock me on my a$$. We all have old wounds. I think these wounds open up when we still have more to learn. Finding the lesson in hardship is…well, hard. 

Recently I felt my plate of life feeling rather heavy. I distinctly recall thinking “Hmm, there’s a lot happening and I could really see one more thing putting me over my threshold”. What a gift to be able to recognize this before it happens - thanks coach! I upped my non negotiables of mediation, reading, exercise and nature. I journaled more to process things more thoroughly. 

Then the ‘one more thing’ happened. Then another ‘one more thing’ happened. Back to back, bam! It doesn’t really matter what those are but they were significant. Rock your world and question your self worth - significant. I felt like a boxer that got very near to a KO but was still sort of conscious and aware of hurt, anger and confusion swirling around me. 

While I knew I was teetering on overwhelm I thought it would be something like one more school spirit week or my kid home from school sick again. Instead it was bigger and more crushing and it left me questioning nearly every single thing in myself, my career, my relationships and my values. On top of that was a feeling of not really being where I thought I was on my evolution and journey to find joy. That was a sucker punch to the gut. I felt like a phony. 

I immediately went into self care. More sun, nature, movement, journaling and phoning a friend (sister in this case). It hit me on that call with her that I was actually way further along than I thought. Everything I was doing was for healing and processing versus being pissed off and hurt and just pushing through without processing. Previously, I didn’t think giving myself the space to process was important. I thought I had to figure out how to be better so they’d approve of me, like me, value me, etc. 

Not true. What I needed most, and still do, is myself. Self love, compassion and grace. As long as I am happy with the effort I am putting into things – life – that’s the only judge I need. My decisions on matters and how I show up for myself are rooted in love, not fear. I’m so over fear ruling my life. A piece of advice, if you’ll read it: First, ask yourself if you’re happy with how you handled a situation or processed a challenging time. If the answer is yes, then be proud and celebrate your growth. If the answer is no, it’s time to explore why.

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